Catastrophe

where do you see yourself now
are you lost in the midst
of where youve been told to be
or of what you lack to see
They say it's hard to escape
impossible to be set free
sadly by no fault of yours
and certainly not of me

I know
I've seen it time and time again
thinking he is her only friend
and when she wakes up alone
she sits by the phone trying not to pretend
It's a wish he cannot grant
a promise he cant grace
but I can take you to a higher place

Girl, I'm gonna show you another way
They say it's simple so dont be afraid
We're gonna live to see another day.
I'll show you mercy until the end of time
dont you see, see, see
because we're living until we die
and you're gonna pass this catastrophe.


I've lived this moment, two times before
dejavu is what I'm living for
if I cant live to learn the first time
why should you, why should you
listen to me now, I've made my mistake
why must you try to compensate
every stumble of mine was for you to take
not to toss back in my face

Cause you never needed to be this way
Girl, I'm gonna show you another way
They say it's simple so dont be afraid
we're gonna live to see another day
I'll show you mercy until the end of time
Why dont you see, why dont you see
Because we're living until we die
and you dont have to live this catastrophe.

You dont have to live this catasrophe.
it's not yours anymore.

my emo

It's a shame that
I've had to learn to sleep
with one eye open, palm on my chest
so you cant steal my heart again.
but evidentally you've beat me
to the punch. It's gone
and I see the trail it's left
leading straight to your deceit.

For now, I have my solice.
knowing you'll need me again.
I waited for you, waited for
the image of our past.
But the picture's burnt,
Charred with our idea.

It's no longer bitterness
that drives my distrust.
It's that smile, that laugh,
that kiss we shared
to bring me to my peak.
when you left me broke and weak.

Tell me, amends we can
I'll believe you. I always did,
and that's what put me here.

Never left behind

So if I had the mind to touch you
and a certain way to reach you
I would follow desperation to the end
You're feeling too controled to find it
but the rage inside won't let you hide it
In time a call will bring you to the finite inn

I saw it for a moment in time
you were raising your hands to the sky
and it came to you like it was tried and true
and you would never be left behind

Sure in ways we've past it
Never knew we've ever lasted
what was gifted us to our final day
And I'll pray you keep forgiving
all the days you've gone on living
but had wished you could ignore all that I say

But I saw it for a moment in time,
you were raising your hands to the sky.
And it came to you like it was tried and true,
and you would never be left behind.

Falling faster, I'm racing after
A soul I know to be free
If I could I'd live it, oh a world to live it
But it's not mine, I am not mine
I gave that up so long ago

And I saw it for a moment in time,
you were raising your hands to the sky.
And it came to you like it was tried and true,
and you would never be left behind.
left behind

The Lie Was Promised

A fifth of the wave
and none from the season
anatomy of devotion
subsides within treason
Ultimate design
of contrasting illusion
leave me but dangle
in utter confusion.

Across me in glass
I'm awared my reflection
entangled in vanity
by scalding deception
enthralled by my mind
I delimit my heart
for the chance of desertion
I dare not begin to start

I know better than to spring
my senses aroused but confined
if I proceed and in turn fail
I'll be tainted bitter stale
forever shunned by the better tale
I failed myself this time
I failed my life in crime
I couldn't commit without your promise
that I'd be the last man standing
without regrets or regards to my soul

Sustain me my friend
confine in my worth
substantial imprisoning
withholds my move forth
instilled me at last
my will and my power
a last drop of hope
results in my finest hour

I know better than to spring
my senses aroused but confined
if I proceed and in turn fail
I'll be tainted bitter stale
forever shunned by the better tale
I failed myself this time
I failed my life in crime
I couldn't commit without your promise
that I'd be the last man standing
without regrets or regards to my soul

I've stood too long
I've prayed too hard
and in his song
of face left marred
I'll trace my prints
to follow back
and gather hints
of the life I lack

Melodromania

Shades of mixed emotion
are turning my back blue
Faced down on the concrete
life it flows from my
fingertips, edging me, pushing me
get back up you melodromatic
but I'm fine, just let me be

Intertwined within this
a circle of fear revolves
and like my lifeless body
builds an aroma of
dust, mold, an empty basement
abandoned and forgotten twice
though many had left, no one was sent
back for me not for shuring
themselves that they failed me
not knowing they nailed me
back to the pinwheel
to become a game of laughter and amusement

Can you hear me now
that I'm screaming in your face
or is the saliva dripping from your cheek
another reminder of my disgrace
Give it back to me now
the gifts I gave that have no price
The ones you carry on and on with you
when the price tag won't suffice

And if I called back to you
would you hear more than
insignificant static from my lips
I'd let you know when I'd speak
nonsense, it's pointless, so senseless
when my words flow right through
and kept my thoughts in duress.

No less than what I've taken
No more than what I've given
simply enough to keep you here
and enough to supress me there

The Samurai

My salt-stained cheeks
spawn life to a new
fountain of life in a lost
child-mistaken world
cultic followings, ceremonial,
ancestral virtues carried out
without recognition or cause

Deep in a wall hidden by flowers
on canvassed wallpaper you can find
mysteries beyond your wildest dreams.
Cinamographic details embed
deep within your head a vision of life taken
away so long ago
but if fall delivers two seasons late
and snow drowns the leaves above
I won't dare try to recall the dream
of the samurai who never drew his sword

I will dream again, that men were men
and the steed on which they rode
never rested in the cold
ground was stood upon again
and the impassable bridge was once more
fought for, and triumphed over
like should have been when men were men

And by the tall road
where our common loyalties stand
I dare not mention my dream
to another suit and tie bound
by fate we received
when we wanted to be somebody
we all wanted to be somebody
and someone I will be.

Young, wild, true

Think about the days
when we were heroes for climbing trees
Tackling branch by branch
while living amongst the leaves
Though we knew that we were daring
we would bear subside our fear
Somehow we had known
that help was standing near

If I could just recall just how it felt
to just be young at heart

And remember passing notes
to the one that you adored
Free from fear of broken hearts
free from a fear of being luered
because in this moment
we spoke what we knew true
no more barriers or restraints
There was only me and you

It was simple long ago
and we turned it into snow
browned and muddy on the road
We can't play in it anymore
but remember when we could?

So when the time comes again
will you be ready? with sled in hand
to glide like glass across the land
Let's be curious again, and let's explore
So let us sled from sea to sea, and shore to shore.

It was simple long ago
and we turned it into snow
browned and muddy on the road
We can't play in it anymore
but remember when we could?

unfinished template pt. 1

If pity could save
I'd be clean forever
and if my tears were wood chips
my splintered eyes would blind
the truest martyrs of my time
But if I allotted grace to heal
I'd then commit no crime

In concious sobriety
my will begins to fail
and crumble in spiral descent
among others who suffer
equal pain and turmoil
I'm sure my life is spent
I've said everything I've ever meant

Follow me down
surround me with terricloth
so I'll once again be warm
carry me once again
because the last time I felt you in me
I had clarity, and shade against the wind

I've fooled my arms again
tossing them in every direction
to hold things that couldn't embrace
me back, though I wanted them to
I can't believe I've fallen
short once again left crawlin'
What will it take for me to be all in, once again

Follow me down
surround me in terricloth
so I'll once again be warm.
Carry me once again
because the last time I felt you in me
I had clarity, and shade against the wind.